My true calling… (From the heart)

Since the age of 19, I have tried many things to make some money. Starting with affiliate marketing and SEO, and all the way to offline marketing, which was more challenging and way out of my comfort zone.

After some success, and however terrifying it was for me at the time, I felt like I was not truly fulfilling my potential.

I started product creation in order to teach people and help others achieve what they were looking for. However teaching people how to make money online became the only way I started to make money online, and I didn’t want to be one of those people that just teach people how to make money by teaching people how to make money.

At this point, after my biggest and most successful launch with the help of many people (Esp. my partner Brad Spencer), I went through a crushing heartbreak. My marriage was slowly dissolving as we grew further and further apart, and I could not see it working into the future.

It took a very long time to finally reach the decision, and it was the hardest decision I ever had to make, but I didn’t know what was to come.

At around the same time I went to a workshop to uncover my emotions. I was closed off emotionally for as long as I could remember, to the point where I thought and rationalised that I just didn’t get feelings.

Feelings were explained logically and anyone who actually “felt” didn’t know the science behind it. That’s how I thought. Until this workshop uncovered stuff that I never thought was in there, and everything from childhood to my teenage life was unravelled.

So when I went through the breakup, and I was feeling my emotions for the first time, I felt it full force like I had never felt anything before in my life.

After months of this (where I couldn’t work at all) I discovered something even worse. My self-esteem and self worth was completely tied to my wife, from the age of 15, and without her my self esteem hit rock bottom.

I realised after a time that the only person that could help me was myself. I was my own worst enemy but also my own best friend. Instead of focusing on the enemy part that was dragging me down, I started to focus on the best friend part.

So I started to work on my self esteem. I still had not gotten back to work, and I wasn’t even sure what I wanted to do yet. It was a confusing time, but I was ready for anything.

After another month of properly working on myself, I finally reached a place where I was ready to start focusing on growing and building again.

At this point I discovered my true calling. I realised that the Internet Marketing arena always talks about how 97% of people will fail, while only 3% will take action and be successful.  This may be true, but it’s not just about taking action.

I realised that one of the main reasons for this crazy ratio is that those 97% of people lack simple self-esteem and self worth. If they truly believed in themselves then they would not be a part of the 97%.

I had low self-esteem since I was very young, and my girlfriend, then wife, made me forget for a time. But when I didn’t have her, I realised what its truly like to have low self esteem. I couldn’t work, I couldn’t function, and I definitely could not become successful online.

I genuinely feel like my true passion is helping those 97% achieve a sense of self-esteem and self worth. I want to start helping them on their journey of self growth so they can be happy, take passionate action, and work towards their dreams.

However I’m a very scientific person. I don’t like washy washy techniques, and I also love simplifying everything to its basic forms.

I hate complicated processes, long and difficult self-growth methods, and things that seem to take forever but never work. And trust me, I have tried many techniques and methods, and I always go for the most scientific and proven, yet simplest methods I can find.

I want to help people realise their true worth, and find self esteem within themselves so they can grow and become the best version of themselves just like I am doing on a daily basis.

This is my true calling, at this stage in my life.

Other areas that I want to explore are fitness and social relations. If people love their body then the mind will follow, and if people can interact with others and see how much others like their presence then they will love themselves even more.

It’s all connected to self growth and self esteem. And even if I teach people how to make money online, it will always be from a position of growth and happiness, never from a place of profit and financial well being.

I want happiness to spread through the world, one person at a time. And I won’t ever stop until I can share my message with as many people as I can reach.

I’m looking forward to my new path, and I would love to hear what you think.

Leave a comment below with your thoughts, I love hearing from others, whether its your thoughts, advice or concerns.  I look forward to reading your comments.

Speak up!

Thanks for reading, speak soon…

Josh M

About the Author

My name is Josh Morris, I run the site LovingGrowth. I love writing about self growth and motivational or inspirational advice. Enjoy reading!

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Wayne Rodden - October 13, 2013 Reply

Hi Josh,

Wow ! quite a powerful post their Josh. I can relate to this post and I am definitely some one who lacks self-esteem and self worth at this times, My Story is quite different though.

I decided to give up my Job to look after my grandfather full time who was suffering from Cancer, Hart failure, & Asbestosis. I never knew my reel father when I was young so Grandad was always their for me. It was a tough time in my life but every day was filled with a true sense Hope, love & fulfilment. My Grandfather was a time served Inspector in the Dockyard and a very dapper man he always wore a shirt & tie even when we were Gardening. Religiously we went for a couple of pints every Wednesday & Sataday at his local that he had been drinking in for over 50 years. He always sat in the same corner, & was always greeted with many friendly welcomes ‘He was great company.

I had lived with my Grandfather for over a decade, ‘so every arrangement was made from him spending his last days at home to me being taken care off, & we even chose the music that he wanted to listen to whilst passing. Gramps was his cheer-full self on the his last day 7 never complain once. All the family came that day to say their good buys, & I put on his favourite music & I said my good buys and he peacefully passed away.

It was around this time I lost my self-esteem and self worth, I was sent an eviction notice only weeks after his passing & given a month to vacate my home by my local council. I was told I was going to be moved into a 1 bedroom flat somewhere & was told I was under occupying and that everything had to gone within 1 month or everything would be skipped. My grandfather had lived in his home for over 60 years ‘so you can imagine! it wasn’t Just my Grandfathers possessions but some of my late Grans & also mine. I was lucky because I had a lot of family that was helping me at the time that I will be eternally grateful to & Everything was packed & all downstairs ready to be moved. I couldn’t bare sleeping upstairs so slept on the sofa, not that I got much sleep.

I was then told that I had to go on this point scheme to bid on a flat of my choice & told I was put in the top most category to get re-homed. Then a month went by & still no joy ‘then two & three, Every flat I put a bid on I got refused. This was taking it’s toll on me & I soon started to suffer with Depression.
I just had enough I didn’t want to be hear any more. Then one morning some nine months later untold dr’s appointments,& Medication, I get a call from my Mum telling me another flat has became empty right opposite her.

I had written a letter in the past to my local MP threatening to take my case to the Media, so the local councillors knew I had enough and was serious. so I phoned the council office up, explained about the flat & ‘that it has just become vacant and if I didn’t get the flat I was going strait to the papers & media to explain my situation.

I received a few phone calls back one from the MP and another from the councillors to see if I was serious or not. I told them strait out that I was Going to the papers & any one that was going to listen to me. Then the next day whilst at my mums I get a phone call from the council office telling me I was able to view the flat & if it wasn’t what I wanted I could refuse it but If I accepted the flat I only had a week to move in. (I accepted!)

Then the day after the viewing & accepting the near derelict flat I got this excruciating pain in my belly & was rushed into hospital to have my appendix out. I only had one week to move into the flat & all hopes was dwindling away but again my family helped me out. My step father & brother are painters & decorators, & completely turned the flat into a living accommodation.

Gaining my self-esteem and self worth is now my next challenge. I have yet to make a regular income on-line probably because i like helping people more. I have made a few quid hear & their but certainly nothing to shout about. I honestly think If you can teach people how to do something, it’s more rewarding than making a few quid & when they thank you for it. This way you build trust & it shows you are a genuine person which will build a truly loyal following.

Hope you don’t mind my rambling Josh & I wish you all the success in the future.


Ted - October 4, 2013 Reply

Hi Josh,
1st off – I have never replied to a blog post before but yours touched me. Maybe it’s because I have children around your age and this is the advice I’ve shared with them. I believe you are correct in your assessments however I’d like to point out that there is a difference between self-esteem and confidence and in my opinion confidence is more important. If you are open to suggestions I’d like to suggest 2 books that you may find enlightening and helpful. I’ve read dozens of books on the subject and these are among the best.
The 1st is Complete Confidence by Sheenah Hankin and the other one is Mindset by Carol Dweck. These aren’t touchy feely books but they describe situations like you describe and list specific techniques to address them.
Whatever you decide I wish you the best on your journey.

Isaiah Jackson - October 3, 2013 Reply

Josh, it has been soooooo long since I heard from you.

Honestly, its about time you got here, I’m happy for you 🙂

Reading this blog post made me want to write my own blog post about this blog post.

Okay use the word blog post too many times, but you get what I’m saying.

On another note, you have a great message to share with the 97% its this blog post.

I believe you can achieve anything you put your mind too Josh.

I’ll be here watching, better yet I will be right there with you.

To your success,


Peggy - October 3, 2013 Reply

Thanks so much for sharing such a personal side of you. It’s so touching. I agree that it’s not all about money. When it comes right down to it, money is certainly not what is important in life. People and happiness are. Yes money is an essential part of being self-sufficient, and we can use our money to help others as well.

I love where your blog post is coming from. Straight from the heart. I wish you the best and will continue to follow you as I love and appreciate your insights!


Chris - October 3, 2013 Reply

Josh what a great message. I have come to realize in my own life that all my ups and downs were tied to (one could even say caused by) by own self image. For the longest time I thought that my self image sprang from my success or lack of it, when the exact opposite is true.
Once I finally realized that I was on my way – but life has a way of tripping us up, and after a number of years of doing really well I wound up with a physical problem that was so big and long lasting that it led to depression, and there I was – in the battle all over again. I think that bolstering our self belief/self image/self esteem is an ongoing task. But it is ohhhhhh, so worth the fight!
Thanks for your honesty – it is refreshing.

Lisa - October 2, 2013 Reply

Reading such an open, honest post is refreshing. I look forward to hearing ways in which you have boosted your self esteem, as many people are indeed held back in life due to the lack of it. Your true calling is an inspiration and I wish you the best of luck with it xxx

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